Good-bye Eastland Dental

Here is my office staff, missing Jan our hygienist.

I had to go today to say good-bye to my office.
Colby and I took a trip over to Eastland to pick up my belongings and say good-bye to my girls and the administration team.
It was another bittersweet memory.
There were lots of laughs and a few tears (I avoided that as much as possible, emotions and pregnancy aren't good when you are close to being in labor!)
The past 2 years with these girls has been amazing. We have been through so much.
When I began there July 2006, the office was very different than it is today. Few employees and few patients were being seen. Me and my office manager Lorena had a goal, a vision of growth. Well that's just what we did. We took an un-organized, very unpredictable dental office and turned it into a professional, trust-worthy dental palace!! We made Eastland Dental an office patients enjoyed coming to, and trusted coming to. We had the complete support of the other team members- Cloda, Yessica, Raquel, and Anabel, as well as our administration staff. Jan is a new addition, our new hygienist who has the same vision as we all do; she will help keep the vision going and growing.
Each person at this job has played an important role in my life and each of them will be remembered in my future dental career!
Lorena- Thank you. Thanks for the support. Thanks for calling me out when it was time for me to stand-up to things I needed to. Thanks for being a great work partner as well as friend. I couldn't have made it through the ups and downs of the past 2 years without you. SO many memories, so many scared, funny, shocking moments!!! I could go on and on, but I won't because I feel the tears coming!!! You are an amazing woman with so many amazing talents!
Cloda- I have been impressed with your talents and dedication since your first day. Your abilities are incredible. You have an awesome talent connecting with patients and relating to everyone somehow or someway! Keep loving your family and the Lord the way you do! You have an amazing future ahead!
Anbel- I have loved watching you become braver and more confident everyday! Your laugh and your stories are incredible! You are truly a lovable person! Stick to your guns, and always stick up for what you believe in!!!
Raquel- You have become one of my closest friends. I have loved getting to experience so many life adventures together! I can't wait to see and hear all that lies ahead in your life. Eat Rico's for me OFTEN and Y&R will always make me remember you!!! I love ya girl!
And Yessica- WOW!!! How close we have become! Keep believing! I will miss IMing you about all the funny things going on, and especially about The Hills!!! Thank you for your positive outlook on everything! I truly appreciate how every situation that has occurred you can find something good in! And I know God has so much in store for you! I can't wait to hear all about it! And you better PROMISE to stop in and see me on your way down south!
Love you girls! And miss y'all so much, ALREADY!!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Rest REALLY Does Help!

So it's crazy, but...
Rest REALLY Does Help!
So I have rested and relaxed for the past 2 days, and it's amazing the way things have improved!
My feet are almost normal again.
I have peed every 10 minutes, but crazily I already have lost those 6 lbs of water I had gained in 5 days.
And I checked my blood pressure today at Wal-Mart, and it's sooooo much lower!!!!
Can you believe it?
My doctor was right!
So I guess not working is really the better option at this point, so I give in!
I may be bored, but I now can believe that this is much better for me and Cade!

First Day Home

So Today was my First Day Home.
Yesterday I had a doctor's appointment, my normal weekly check-up.
It was a VERY emotional day for me.
So I gained 6 lbs in 5 days, my blood pressure was "sketchy" per Dr. Gardner and I was dilated 1 cm and she could feel his head.
So what does this all mean??
Well I had to quit working. I was ordered to rest and stay off my feet as much as possible. This is not "bed-rest" but just a way for my doctor to force me to quit pushing myself so hard. I love my job. I love my patients. And I love the girls I work with. So not going to work is very emotional for me. I am already bored and even more lonely now. Work was kinda my way to get away from an empty house, since Colby won't be home until Oct 3. Day-time TV sucks! I love Y&R- but that's only 1 hour of the day!
So the 6 lbs- explains why I am so swollen, see in my blog yesterday.
The blood pressure- most likely due to the sudden water weight gain.
And I'm sure you are asking why did this happen? No clue. Probably the most annoying part! They have no clue why this happens.
They are hoping the rest and keeping my feet up will help the swelling and possibly lower the BP.
And being dilated, don't get too excited. Being dilated means NOTHING! I could be this way for hours, days, or weeks!
But I will say, I did sleep 13 hrs last night and took a 3 hour nap today, and I am still tired, so maybe I am a little more exhausted than I realized!
The bright side of all of this is now I have time to get my hospital bag packed, pack Cade's bag, and mentally get rested in preparing to soon be a mom!
And like Dr. Garder said- water weight is the easiest and quickest weight to lose, so I'll hopefully have my HOT, SEXY body back before you know it!!! Yea right!!! HAHAHAHA

GROSS!

So that you all believe me!
I woke up to swollen everything! And this is how it looks after 3 hrs of working on my feet!
How gross can it be!
CANKLES AND VIENNA SAUSAGE TOES ARE HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!
DISGUSTING!!!!!

Best Pregnancy Email I Have Received!

PREGNANCY Q & A
Q: Should I have a baby after 35?
A: No, 35 children is enough.
Q: I'm two months pregnant now. When will my baby move?
A: With any luck, right after he finishes college.
Q: What is the most reliable method to determine a baby's sex?
A: Childbirth.
Q: My wife is five months pregnant and so moody that sometimes she's borderline irrational.
A: So what's your question?
Q: My childbirth instructor says it's not pain I'll feel during labor, but pressure. Is she right?
A: Yes, in the same way that a tornado might be called an air current.
Q: When is the best time to get an epidural ?
A: Right after you find out you're pregnant.
Q: Is there any reason I have to be in the delivery room while my wife is in labor?
A: Not unless the word 'alimony' means anything to you.
Q: Is there anything I should avoid while recovering from childbirth?
A: Yes, pregnancy.
Q: Do I have to have a baby shower?
A: Not if you change the baby's diaper very quickly.
Q: Our baby was born last week. When will my wife begin to feel and act normal again?
A: When the kids are in college.

'ESTROGEN ISSUES'
10 WAYS TO KNOW IF YOU HAVE 'ESTROGEN ISSUES'
1. Everyone around you has an attitude problem.
2. You're adding chocolate chips to your cheese omelet.
3. The dryer has shrunk every last pair of your jeans.
4. Your husband is suddenly agreeing to everything you say.
5. You 're using your cellular phone to dial up every bumper sticker that says: 'How's my driving-call 1- 800-'.
6. Everyone's head looks like an invitation to batting practice.
7. Everyone seems to have just landed here from 'outer space.'
9. You're sure that everyone is scheming to drive you crazy.
10. The Tylenol bottle is empty and you bought it yesterday.

Sept 22- A Bitter/Sweet Day

As I sat in church today, a huge amount of emotion came pouring down on me as I sat there alone, feeling so lonely and numb inside, tears of sadness and joy flowing down my cheeks.
For some odd reason, I truly felt God nudging me saying and reminding me, "Tomorrow is a very special day Pennie" and he is right.
Tomorrow marks a day in mine and Colby's life that never will be forgotten.
First- One year ago- our precious Jetta Marie said her good-byes to us as God took her up into heaven. I can picture her sitting right at Jesus's feet. Loving him and licking his toes (her way of washing his feet and showing her grace). Jetta has such a sweet soul. Everyone who met her, loved her and could feel her peace. She was an amazing pup that Colby and I will always miss and keep in our hearts. We sure miss you girl!

Second- our sweet-loving CosmoPolitan was born one year ago. I will never forget the feelings I had when our breeder Susie told me the day she was born. It was such a bitter/sweet feeling, as if Jetta had sent Cosmo to us as she ascended into heaven. Cosmo has the sweetest and most loving spirit. I can just see Jetta putting her paw over Cosmo and telling her exactly how to be once she became a Langford. Happy Birthday Cosmo!


It's not completely understood by many on how I can tell God thank you for both of these events, but I do.
I know God took Jetta for a reason. And to be honest with you all, I believe I know the reason.
September 23, 2007- Colby and I attended church at New River for the first time. "Just by chance" (as some my say), the sermon was about being saved. After losing Jetta, I was truly at my wits end. I needed Christ more than ever. And as we drove out of that parking lot, I decided to have a moment of peace as I asked God to save me.
I wonder if Jetta was watching me, because I truly feel losing her was God's plan on changing my life, Colby's life, and our lives together as one.
So thank you God. Thank you! And God please give Jetta kisses and tell her I will see her again, one day very soon.

Below is a poem Warren (Lockie's husband) sent me when I lost my girl.


The Power of the Dog
by
Rudyard Kipling

There is sorrow enough in the natural way
From men and women to fill our day;
And when we are certain of sorrow in store,
Why do we always arrange for more?
Brothers and sisters, I bid you beware
Of giving your heart to a dog to tear.

Buy a pup and your money will buy
Love unflinching that cannot lie--
Perfect passsion and worship fed
By a kick in the ribs or a pat on the head.
Nevertheless it is hardly fair
To risk your heart to a dog to tear.

When the fourteen years which Nature permits
Are closing in asthma, or tumour, or fits,
And the vet's unspoken prescription runs
To lethal chambers or loaded guns,
Then you will find--it's your own affair--
But ... you've given your heart to a dog to tear.

When the body that lived at your single will,
With its whimper of welcome, is stilled (how still!)
When the spirit that answered your every mood
Is gone--wherever it goes--for good,
You will discover how much you care,
And will give your heart to a dog to tear.

We've sorrow enough in the natural way,
When it comes to burying Christian clay.
Our loves are not given, but only lent,
At compound interest of cent per cent.
Though it is not always the case, I believe,
That the longer we've kept 'em, the more do we grieve:
For, when debts are payable, right or wrong,
A short-term loan is as bad as a long--
So why in--Heaven (before we are there)
Should we give our hearts to a dog to tear?

Nursery So Far

Here is our Nursery So Far...
My hubby has been working away down there in McAllen!!!
He's done such a great job!
We will decorate everything else once I get there!
Since obviously this is the bare essentials!!!