Happy Halloween!!

Cade went to his first Halloween party last night.
Our neighborhood here is very close and festive, which is just great since we don't know anyone here.
He was for sure the cutest kid there, not that I am partial or anything!
His outfit and hat swallowed him, but he still pulled it off well!

Cade's Nursery

We finally are un-packed and organized in McAllen.
And I finally have a real nursery!!!





And the little prince loving his bed!

Lots of News!

First off ...
I went to the doctor today. And so far so good. My fever has stayed down since I started the 2nd antibiotic. I have been feeling amazing again. My left breast is still swollen and red but its so much better than before!
So we are just waiting to see what happens. There are 2 possibilities:
1. It could resolve on its own with no problems.
2. The abscess could come to 'a head'. Meaning it could pop like a juicy pimple! So gross. If I notice that is about to happen I have to contact the doc ASAP and have surgery.
But the good thing is me and the doc don't see #2 happening since things have gotten so much better so quickly.

Next topic...
Cade slept in his bed all night last night. Only woke up once! So great.
So I have to confess to all of you. I made a huge mistake when I brought Cade home. I didn't want to tell y'all because I feel like all of my blog friends are perfect moms and I didn't want y'all to be disappointed in me!
So if you remember I spent the 1st week with Cade at Granny's and Nannie's house. I didn't want them to hear Cade screaming his head off so I started an icky habit and I allowed him to sleep on my chest every night!
So I when I got home, the bed was not his favorite place!
The only catch to this whole breakthrough last night (and please don't freak out all of you amazing moms) is he will only sleep on his tummy. I have tried everything to get him on his back and all he does he scream his brains out. On his tummy he's an angel and just sleeps so well. I cried when I realized this. And I made Colby stay up last night till 4 to watch him breathe.
So every time I lay him down now I pray to God that he will hold little Cade in his hands and protect him. My mom made a comment today that no matter what God's plan is that's what will happen regardless of what I do and she is right. So I just have to leave this one up to Him and have faith.

And last topic...
I accepted a job yesterday. I had two really great offers, one was at another community clinic (somewhat similar to where I was working in Eastland) and the other was at a private practice office. I was really torn because there are so many pros and cons to each working environment. But as soon as I walked into the private practice, I just knew it was the job for me this time. I will have tons of freedom and the pay will be more than efficient. I am very excited to have one less thing to worry about. And I'm not going to start until January, so that's more time with my lil' one!

Just when you think things are getting better...

So today started out "ok".
I was only running 99.5 fever so I was so excited!
Well, it didn't stay that way....
So we went to Cade's pediatrician appointment, he's going great and barely even cried during his PKU. He is gaining weight and his health is perfect! My new pediatrician down here is a friend, she is the wife of a guy I went to dental school with. So she made me feel so comfortable, and I am blessed to have her down here!!
But I could tell my fever was climbing during Cade's appointment.
So Colby and the pediatrician insisted I see my new OBGYN down here.
We called and they told me to come in ASAP.
The doctor was great, I was very nervous about that since I LOVED Dr. Gardner.
Well my temp was up to 102.5 again!
And my left breast is so red and swollen.
It still is not affecting my breast feeding. No pain during feeding and the doctors explain it's the best thing to do because it helps drain the area.
So when he looked at it, his main concern was an abscess was forming.
He put me on a 2nd antibiotic and I have to go back tomorrow.
I just got finished putting a heating pad on it, hoping it will help, per doctor's orders FYI.
So I go back tomorrow... If things have gotten worse, they will put me on IV antibiotics at home. But if that doesn't work, I will have to have surgery and that will require me to discontinue breast-feeding.
I have really come to peace with the idea of possibly stopping breast-feeding, because I truly just need to get better.
At this point, I am running 103.5 fever.
So if all of you could take some time today and pray for me I would truly appreciate it.
All I want is to improve so I can be a good mom for Cade.
Breast-feeding, bottle-feeding, IV antibiotics or surgery- I don't care- I just want to feel good for my precious baby.
I will let y'all know the results tomorrow.

And this is lil' Cade with Bugslie, she loves him!

Follow-up

So this morning I spoke to Cade's pediatrician, and it was good news!
She actually encouraged me to continue breast-feeding.
The antibiotic I am on won't hurt him and the breast-feeding helps relieve the pressure from the mastitis. And Cade can't get sick or anything from the mastitis, thank God!
So we started breast-feeding again this morning and it's been all good!
He latched right back on with no problems.
Now I just want to stop running fever so I can be myself again!
Mastitis is HORRIBLE!!!
I pray none of you ever have to experience it!

What a Night!

So I am up at 1:45AM, and I am MISERABLE!!!
Out of no where, about 3 hours ago, I began to feel like I was truly dying.
I began shivering and couldn't stop.
I was running a 102.5 fever after taking 3 Tylenol.
Colby put me under 5 blankets, and I still couldn't get warm.
I decided I better call the doctor.
Well I am ones of the lucky ones, MASTITIS has blessed me with it's presence.
Breast-feeding has been awesome, no problems, no pain, and I have actually LOVED it.
So when my left breast began feeling sore and hot, I knew that's what it was.
But the crazy thing is, that's not what upset me the most....
I had to give Cade his first bottle with formula.
He loved it! Took to it just like it was his momma.
But I hated it! I wasn't ready to do that!!!! I cried and cried and I am still crying!
So Colby is out buying me a pump and getting me some Keflex.
I feel for my hubby!!!!! But he's being awesome!
So tonight Cade will get formula and I will pump with each feeding.
Tomorrow I will contact my pediatrician to find out if I can start breast-feeding again!
What a night!
If any of you advice on this, please comment me!

Just a Few More Pics

This is lil' Cade before going home from the hospital.


I really love Nannie!


Colby, Cade, and the girls!


My Aunt Aryn gave this outfit to me! Aren't I cute!!!